Dear Mom {2 letters: Birth Mom & Adoptive Mom} SPECIAL EDITION

To the Mother who nurtured me in the womb, and made the choice to give me life –

I often try to put myself in your shoes, and imagine what life must have been like for you when you discovered you were carrying me.

How scary it must have been.

How alone and ashamed you may have felt.

How it must have turned your whole world upside-down.

Although, I believe I could have understood (and, that I would love you, anyway), had you made a different choice – you didn’t give my life back to God.

You stood up, and took responsibility for me – the accidental unborn child others may have called a ‘mistake’.

You allowed your womb to be my home for nine months, caring for me as you cared for yourself.

You suffered through the aches and pains of pregnancy and child-birth, sacrificing your body and reputation to give me life.

Then, selflessly, you gave me to another woman – one who’d been hurting, too – so I could have what you thought I deserved: a life different from the one you could offer me.

You are so brave.

I want you to know there’s nothing you need to ask forgiveness for, but if it’s something you need from me – you have it.  You always have.

Please don’t have regrets, and please don’t worry about me – if you do.

If you asked, I would honestly tell you that I have had my own share of struggles growing up, but I have found a place of peace and healing, and I hope and pray that you have, too.

Thank you for the life you didn’t have to give me.

Thank you for teaching me more about God’s love, and for showing me what it looks like here on earth.

I love and admire you more than you will ever know,

Your Daughter.

To the Mother who nurtured me in her arms, and made the choice to raise me –

I often try to put myself in your shoes, and imagine what life must have been like for you when you discovered you weren’t able to bring the child you’d always wanted into the world.

How frustrated and angry you must have been.

How empty and heartbroken you may have felt.

How it must have turned your whole world upside-down.

But, you never gave up.

Instead, you allowed your hurt and pain to shift your perspective.

You saw children who were in need of loving homes, and you decided to open the door to yours.

You made yourself humble enough to ask if you could be given the privilege of Motherhood, and vulnerable enough to volunteer to put your life under a microscope so that you may be deemed ‘worthy’ of a child.

You trusted God with your desire to be a Mother, and, in return, He brought me to you.

He knew we needed each other.

You are so brave.

Thank you for choosing to be there through all of the sleepless nights, exhausting days, diaper changes, highs, lows, beauty and messes of my childhood.  I know it wasn’t easy.

Thank you for the family you didn’t have to give me.

Thank you for raising me to know of God’s love, and for showing me what it looks like here on earth.

I love and admire you more than you will ever know,

Your Daughter.

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