Broken…meaning that something is not functioning properly, it is not as it is meant to be.
We have all experienced it and seen it.
It really makes you question some deeper things in life.
Whether you yourself have experienced intense loss and brokenness, or seen a loved one experience it, or even just been an onlooker…it still sucks.
Your gut twists up, and your hands go cold.
It’s not right.
It’s not fair.
And we scramble for explanations to answer our questions…
How could this happen?
Why did this happen?
Why do horrible things happen to innocent, good people?
This is not just…is justice even real?
Is goodness real?
Is God real?
If He is…why would he allow such evil to happen?
When we are in the face of utter brokenness, we question everything.
It could be cancer, death, abuse, violence, disaster, betrayal, abandonment, assault, accidents, suicide…they all leave us wondering.
I’ve been taking a course on Trauma…I’ve had to read some pretty disturbing things lately, and then I’ve seen it in real life when I hear my students’ stories at the high school I intern at or turn on the news. It’s everywhere.
I would be lying if I didn’t say that sometimes hearing these awful things, and even just learning about human suffering makes me question why? Why….
We wonder because something inside us tells us that there is no way that this could be right.
And that’s because it’s not right.
It’s not functioning properly.
And we recognize this…
Because we are made for wholeness…for beauty…for perfection…for goodness
We are made this way.
And because we know that this world is broken and not as it should be, we get mad. Or at least I do…
We are made for something greater and yet we have to deal with all the shit in this world. This broken world.
And it doesn’t make sense.
Maybe that is where the paradox of “Good” Friday comes in.
The day that goodness, beauty, and truth was humiliated, tortured, and murdered.
And I know the whole spiel about how Christ did this so that all of us imperfect people could be saved…but now I see that he also did it so that he could be right there in the trenches with the innocent people who are suffering today. He did it to be right there with all the victims of child abuse, trauma, neglect, rape, violence, and all the people who have had to endure extreme cruelty. He did it so he could let all the victims and survivors out there know:
You are not alone.
I see you.
I see your suffering.
I am here with you.