I Didn’t Know it Would be This Hard

My Good Friday Reflection:

 

God…

I didn’t know it would be this hard.

I didn’t know following you would mean that I really would have to participate in your suffering.

I didn’t know I would be attacked with moral relativism every single day.

I didn’t know that Truth was so hard to speak.

I didn’t know that higher education had an unspoken hate for who you are.

I didn’t know that loving the people who persecute me would weigh on me this much.

I didn’t know there was so much pain and brokenness in the world.

I didn’t know that a culture of death was so prevalent.

I didn’t know that being an advocate for life would bring so much hostility.

I didn’t know that when I was tired and empty, you would want me to choose joy.

I didn’t know that when I had nothing left to give, you would expect the most from me.

I didn’t know it would hurt this much.

I didn’t know what it really meant to be obedient…and maybe I still don’t.

 

Did you know? When you came to earth, did you know all of this would happen to you?

I’m guessing that you did.

And you still chose to go through with it.

You were obedient.

“Christ became obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross”

 

Lord, please give me your obedience.

 

 

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2 thoughts on “I Didn’t Know it Would be This Hard

  1. Such a beautiful and fitting post for Good Friday and a good daily reminder of all Jesus has done for us. It is truly hard to be a Christ-follower in today’s world. I never expected to experience such misunderstanding and anger from my own siblings because of my stand on traditional marriage. My mother suffers deeply because of this as well but I just have to be reminded of the suffering AND death that our Lord went through for each of us and I am filled with strength and hope.

  2. This is absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing. It takes a whole lot of strength to hold onto your faith these days. I love the line, “I didn’t know that when I was tired and empty, you would want me to choose joy,”–that pretty much sums up the past few months of my life. God always calls us back to that place of peace and joy in His arms, even when we feel like we can’t do it.

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